What's happening? Part 3

[joy]

i hope all are doing ok in this heat. i am, i am covered upinside just as much as i was during the winter, thanks to AC, lol. just wanted to pop in and say hi and catch up. that didn't take long but it was worth it even if the catching up was for a much shorter list than it use to be. those that continue to show up are very special folks just like they always were. tZke care, later

[houghchrst]

Home protection only I assure you Clouds. I am all for gun control but am not for disarming the educated gun owner. I am talking like everybody in the house goes to gun training. Repeated every year to keep up their license. Limits and taxes on ammunition and no access to ammunition for guns they have no business owning. Barrel ID database. Every barrel leaves it's own 'fingerprint' on a bullet and should be registered into a big database. Public limited access to types of guns. There are many reasonable things that can be done without disarming a gun owner. I did a huge paper in college on gun control which was, at the time, a big topic due to some postal shootings which I also did a paper on in my business class. I miss school. Using my brain.

I have honestly not gotten a thing done, my yard is a neighborhood embarrassment, I called the neighbor man to mow for me because my mower is still broken down and looks to never be fixed, I know that there is a lot I need to get out and do but my pain levels are at a constant high and thanks to my shoulder moving my arms hurt and I can't lift anything. I am supposed to be in a sling. Guess I will call the medical supply place and see if they have gotten my prescription for it yet. Feeling it today and changes in the weather make everything worse.

Brandon finally has managed to save enough money for a car so of course all the ones he wants to see get sold out from under him. I told him he needs to jump on those, making a next day appointment does not work, first man with money gets the sale.

I am down to one foster, our sweet Sadie got adopted within days of being put in Kitty City so I have only Louise. I am considering making her a foster fail and quitting fostering full time for Los Gatos. They don't like me to have other animals while I foster for them which I get, germ spreading and all that, but it makes me practically useless. There are so many cats that need help and if I wasn't fostering I would be more help. I would like to be a holding place for kitties to at least get them off the street while a rescue is found for them. I have helped 25 cats and kittens just within the last month and there are four more directly connected to people I know. Usually it is FB posts I help kitties from but some family then friends mention they have kitty issues so then just by knowing about it I feel obligated to do something. I am obligated to do something.

Our heat wave seems to have broken and it will be nice enough to be outside today. It has been a scorcher here seems like for weeks. Very little rain though today it looks as though it will but the forecast says no. Just low 80s for today. My tomato plant is growing very slow though it is supposed to be mini tomatoes I don't think that includes the plant LOL.

Having my fence up for my dogs is an absolute dream. I can just open the back door and off they go. They act like it has always been there. It is big enough for the dogs to have plenty of room but small enough that I can push mow it. May take me two days but I can do it lol.

I have put on 20 pounds over the last year and my knees and feet are feeling it. Scheduled for knee injections which helps for a while. Then hopefully I can get my screen up and finished for the catio.

Am wearing a heart monitor for the next week. Have been having heart palpitations for the last four of five days when I would lay down for my nap and then yesterday they were coming back to back then they would calm then they would hit me back to back again whether I was up moving, sitting or laying down. Laying down they were most active. I understand everybody has heart palpitations and it is normal to a point but this was scaring me. Considered going to hospital but got into my cardiologist almost right away so they sent me home with a monitor for seven days. Told me no coffee while I am on it, not listening very well but I noticed today no major heart palpitations of course now that I have this thing on. They should have gotten a good reading from yesterday and last night. Am hoping maybe it is a med adjustment.

Well I have been working on this for days and I guess it just goes to show I got a whole lot of nothing new to say.

[houghchrst]

Gonna be honest here and say I have been in a funk. This pandemic has limited my social ability and so I find myself in this hermit mode and have been outside very little. I do grocery pick up, get gas, and go to the few doc appts I am required to be present at. I have developed a serious case of lack of self care. Everything from deep cleaning the house to brushing my teeth. I just don't really care that much and I don't have anybody that will notice anyway. LOL, though I know. My mind is full up. Am I depressed? I think I am more numb. Am I suicidal? No but I will be so happy to be with God. I am very tired. Already. I still have a ways to go the way I see it and the thought of every day is tiring.

My pain does nothing but increase. Right now I have a tear in one of my shoulder muscles and inflammation in my bursa. This I am praying is a one time thing as I cannot imagine suffering from bursitis on top of everything. I believe I may have had the inflammation then tore my muscle lifting a box trap out of my van without knowing how heavy it was because I was not the one who put it in there. They are making me do physical therapy despite the tear and I have an appointment with an ortho at the end of flippin' September. I am going to make some phone calls on Monday and see if I can't get in somewhere else.

All injected up so am hoping to be able to get more done in the yard. That always lifts my spirits and makes for great napping.

[Earth Mother 2 Angels]

((((((Chris)))))) ~

You are not alone.

Maybe, even though you are all "injected up," you might want to rest your muscles and let them recover.

I have found that when I feel better, and I try to do more than I should, I pay for it later. This is one area, where you might apply "serious self care." Take it easy and let your tear mend.

Healing prayers on the way ~

Love & Light,



Rose


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[jingle]

Thanks clouds -- I didn't know these even existed! I subscribe to Spectrum $$$ but do not get even one movie channel.

[houghchrst]

Thank you Clouds, looked it up and looks worth watching. I love Pluto. I have a Roku and watch Pluto often for the movies and for the home redo shows. I will be watching this.

Jingle I got rid of cable and invested in two Rokus. I pay a small fee for Netflix and Amazon Prime and Hulu I get free through my ex's subscription. Saves me tons of money. There are a ton of free channels to watch old TV shows on also. I am mainly a movie watcher and I love my horror so there are a couple series I am working my way through.

Been going to PT for my shoulder. Yes I have Bursitis and am praying it does not become a chronic thing. The tear in my muscle is taking forever to heal. I imagine if I had worn a sling all this time it may have been but then they tell me they want me to move it so the muscles don't atrophy and so they become strong enough to take the slack up from it just hanging and pulling. Whatever. It still hurts, sometimes worse than others.

For a change I am no longer fostering anybody. I have a chance to do some serious cleaning and rearranging in my foster room. Am keeping an eye out for those that I have helped recently, have been some health scares but every body is going to be fine. I spent 12 hours at the emergency vet which is an hour from me on Sunday, got home at 5:30 Monday morning. Fed the animals and slept until 2:30 Monday afternoon, like a rock. Then remembered that I had a contact to make at 2:30 for my last feral to his new barn. So had to rush around to hurry up and get that done. Then lumbar and sacral injections Tuesday morning and here it is Wednesday and I just got home from PT and I still feel wiped out. House is a disaster so am going to make Jared vacuum and sweep the front porch; which is covered in one of our nearby tree's many sheddings that get damp and will rot the wood if not removed. I also have a 40lb bag of litter pellets that needs to be brought in and dishes that need to be done. Never ends. Stuff we have to do until we meet our maker, hopefully he is not huge on spotless houses but I will surely get a lecture on a "clean house".

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Where is everyone? Please check in. Hoping you are OK.

ANN

[clouds z]

alive but not doing too good

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Glad to hear from you, clouds z. Hoping things will improve.

ANN

[houghchrst]

Clouds I am sorry you are feeling poorly, sending out prayers and a gentle (((((hugs)))))

[clouds z]

now air quality is bad...west coast

[houghchrst]

Morning everyone. I figured I would try and get here when my mood is better. I get tired of whining. I don't know if it's whining or just stating the facts. I feel like I am whining.

Got up early this morning and made myself take a shower, I did some laundry yesterday and it seems forever since I have been down in the basement. Getting a bit of webbing in some areas. I despise spiders but you have to learn to make a bit of peace with them when you live next to the woods. Next time I go down I will take a broom with me and just go around and do some sweeping. I bought some bug spray with one of those automatic spray wands on it, you put a battery in it, and it is good for the year but the wand on it sucks and only works half the time so I only got to some places. I am going to order some spray bottles from Amazon and use one of those. I just ordered some, I got 4 bottles for like a dollar and some change, and put my different cleaners in them. I had been reusing cleaning bottles but they had been written on so many times trying to keep track which was in what bottle that I no longer had room to label and trying to remember just wasn't worth it so a spent a couple of dollars. I was in WalMart a while back and was looking to get some spray bottles and they had some in the makeup/hair aisles. The prices were ridiculous for a little spray bottle so I went to the laundry aisle where the clothes pins and ironing boards are and found bigger more industrial bottles for dollars cheaper. I was looking for a bottle to mist clothes with water. I learned that if your shirt or item is wrinkled you can almost instantly unwrinkle it by hanging the item and misting with water. Let it set and relax and you can lightly pull it smooth too. Of course you must do this ahead of time so it dries some but I have worm many slightly damp t shirts, they dry fast lol.

Seems I have developed bursitis in my right shoulder. I read on internet rest, ice and pain relievers, doc says no sling and continue physical therapy. How does the rest come in? I am right handed. Unless I wear it in a sling it gets no rest. I think I developed it from sitting at this computer. I really need to get my iPad fixed. It is only going to cost $50. I say only lol. Anyway, it is supposed to come and then go but it is not going and I sobbed literally at the thought of getting another injection. I have had 32 injections this year already. Oh wait, 33. I just can't imagine them sticking that needle into my shoulder. The knee injections are bad enough.

The weather has been beautiful prefall temperatures. I have noticed my trees and some others starting to change. Which reminds me I need to go out and check my mini maters. Brandon's mother's day plant has produced some tiny tomatoes but they are loaded with flavor. I think I didn't water it enough so my tomatoes were really mini.

If it weren't for trips to the store and the doctors my neighbors might think I was dead. I took the mower around the property to check the damage with trees falling every year seems like and that is all I have been out. I have trimming, weedwhacking and mowing that all need doing and I don't even go outside. I have been in a store one time in like months. My shoulder makes everything difficult because I know if I go out and start yard work I will pay for it. There is so much that needs doing that I avoid looking at it by not going outside. I should be sitting out there bundled up in a blanket on my swing with my iPad, drinking my coffee and listening to the birds sing in the sunrise. That is what I long to do damn if this didn't turn into a pity party LOLOL.

I have been messaging back and forth with my cousin who found me on FB. We have only seen each other once and it was awkward because it was when the pandemic first started and she stayed on the porch and we talked through the door but the dang dogs barked the entire time. Only couple of minutes, she was dropping something off, I don't even remember what. She knows I have a social phobia and has been very respectful of it though she has only mentioned it once or twice in reference to us meeting for real. She is my first cousin and we played together when we were very little. Our dads were brothers and from what I can tell they were both dysfunctional. Course they came from dysfunctional abusive households. She is going to pick up my chainsaw and have it looked at to see if it is safe to use. It makes a rattling noise and I can see the little nut and bolt that is rattling I just don't know why it is doing that. She knows I am disabled and has offered to help me do some stuff without being pushy about it.

Also had distant relative from Bavaria post on the family FB page and I responded. I got an email saying I had a friend request from them but they must have changed their mind because it didn't come up on my FB page. I have considered sending them a message to see if maybe they were too shy and that's why it was withdrawn. They are using a language translator for FB. Very interesting. My asshat brother responded to them first and since I know him so well I could tell that his comment was insinuating that the person may possibly be lying. I could be wrong but it sounds like it.

Brandon is gone to Georgia to stay with his dad for a week. His dad actually is paying for it all. Blew my mind. He has been a new man since he met this newer woman. They even got married after a short time dating. He is doing well not being in a relationship with an addict. He himself is an addict and stayed drunk most of the time. He still has a couple beers once in a while but never like before. Brandon refers to him as Dave and is very resentful about what a lousy father he was and now that he got married and has this new life and two step daughters, though they are grown, he acts like the greatest dad alive. Not to mention he is a huge dork. Yeah I am well aware that's not very mature. Excuse me for a second cause I was with the man for 18 years. Brandon can't wait to get to work when he gets home. He put his resume on Indeed and has gotten a huge amount of responses so he is sure he can find something decent. He really likes doing factory work. Not the kind where you do the same repetitive job day after day but the big warehouse type jobs. I asked him if he could have any job he wanted what would it be and he didn't know. He never really thought about it but his last factory job he loved the manual labor. I thought the fact that he couldn't think of anything was sad. Almost like he had no goal for his life and was just floating. I imagine that is exactly how he feels. He is a terrible narcissist. And whiny, man can that kid whine. I miss our morning coffees because we had become each other's company during this pandemic but man does he stress me out. And God forbid I should talk about any health issues. He does not want to hear it. I think it is because it scares him. And I know it stresses him out. I tell him the basics so that if anything happens to me he will know something. I have used a notebook to keep important information in just in case something happens to me they will have some kind of reference.


Okay I have gone on long enough, hope to hear from somebody soon.

[joy]

yay i found my laptop cord! Yay my fingers that was slammed in the back of our GMC and the door shut COMPLETELY leaving me with 2 broken fingers and i had to go to hospital - long drive because it was at the lake, to get the tip sewn bacl on. eight stitches. and NO i did NOT feel anything. no lying. my daughter thinks i did because she was the one who shut the door and happened to look up at my face. well i ask, how would your face look if you saw your hand enclosed all shut up in the totally closed back door of your long gmc youkon? i had left my powered wheelchair at home so we could carry our junk to the lake. and since both my feet & legs have no feelings i was creeping along from my front seat holding onto the side of the vehicle with my right hand so hopefully i would not fall. my intentions were to once the jet ski was well into the water hopefully getting onto it for a short ride. so boo i haven't gotten to ride it this year. i hope that the bones have healed enough, because i gotta say it is hard to keep something that doesn't hurt still. oh yes, they found where at some time i also had the fifth finger broken at some time in my life while they were xraying my fingers. huh, guess they have been dead longer than i think or else i am wonder woman.

i hurt my back bad while trying to get onto the surgery table for myradio frequency abulation shots. i swear i think they let all the help in the room play with the patients while they have a person in surgery. it hurt like double hE!! . but i will be forced to keep getting them. usuaLLY it takes them about 10 minutes to do the injections on a normal person but they have to do so much on me that it takes about an hour and half. there is no thinking that i can go on without them either even if it is painfu. i try riding that jet ski for a reason, that is my back up plan. but it wo\t work if i cannot get on the darned thing. i can only ride for a few minutes because i have no muscles. i have a plastic stick with a big flat spot on top that i use to push the button to start it. so naturally i cannot grip the handle to give it gas for very long. but i kinda feel like a normal person for a short while if i can pull it all off. and no wave jumping for me as that really would pound my back big time.

well hope everone is just normal, i mean getting older and griping. that's normal for my 74 year old age group. hubby was trying to fix a light (on a ladder no less) and fell and hit the wall. he knocked his shoulder out of place big time. they had to put (in hospital) to sleep to put his shoulder back in place. he said i guess maybe he didn't give me enough sympathy for when i tore my rotator cuff when that box fell on me in thelowes store. so here we sit just two old folks counting down timdue. our daughter just lost her best friend to cancer so i'm not going to knock growing old, just the pain that goes on daily and nightly with it.
but hey, still here and i do enjoy seeing the sunshine outside Later