Tired

[nuthatch]

Tired of MS, tired of not being able to do things, go places, live . . . tired of being ignored and feeling invisible . . tired of reaching out, tired of giving . . . enough.

[stillstANNding]

Joan,

I hope you are still on-site tonight. MS is tiring.
You have big obstacles. Please don't give up or in.

Tomorrow is another day. Your birds will be waiting out the windows.
You add value here that you just can't know. The same in your life. You can't know who you have helped.

Love & chocolate
ANN

[Gary]

Yeah I know what you mean......... sometimes it makes you feel better to come to BT and write it all down. At least here when someone says "they know what you mean" they REALLY do know.

[Jeanie Z]

:) We do know and we have all been there at times. The worse I feel the more I seem to pray for relief. Those of us living with MS are very strong mentally and wish we were physically. Hang in there and have some of Ann's chocolate and rant here if you need to. Jeanie :)

[agate]

I'm so sorry a cloud is hanging over you, Joan. Others have been there if that's any comfort.

There are times--often--when I feel like a useless failure. Things didn't go according to plan in my life, and I'm betting that everyone here can say the same thing.

But it IS a life, and it's more than many are given. Being able to watch the leaves change color makes it worth while. Today I took the trash out to the dumpster (my outing for the day!) and noticed a tree outside that had turned a spectacular orange. It took me by surprise and I had to stop and stare at it.

You mention being tired of giving. Why not take help when it's offered for a while? If anyone has said they'd like to help, why not let them? Maybe the time has come to give less and let other people give for a while.

You'll get your mojo back, I'm sure, and be more in the mood for reaching out and helping other people soon enough.

I notice in your Profile that you have an Etsy shop. And I found when I looked into it that you've been making some beautiful jewelry! You've never promoted your Etsy shop on this board as far as I know, but I hope you won't mind if I promote it for you by mentioning it.

[SuzE-Q]

Tired of MS, tired of not being able to do things, go places, live . . . tired of being ignored and feeling invisible . . tired of reaching out, tired of giving . . . enough.

((((Joan))))

You are such a lovely, kind person, I'm so sorry you're going through a tough time right now.

Hoping you have much joy and happiness coming your way again soon, you deserve it, and more!

[Howie]

I'll add my voice to the others. We need you here. Just take a deep breath, and regroup. Get rid of excess baggage, and embrace what YOU need. Be kind to yourself.

[SalpalSally]

(((((Joan))))). I sooooo understand. I love you. Please hang in there for a better day and I hope it comes soon for you.

Tired of MS, tired of not being able to do things, go places, live . . . tired of being ignored and feeling invisible . . tired of reaching out, tired of giving . . . enough.

[Virginia]

Joan, you said so well what I have felt on many occasions. Sometime I ask who am I helping or benefiting by being here? But in reality you have given us so many beautiful pictures of nature and wild life. Someday when your grandchild is older they will tell you how brave and determined they always saw you. Then it will have been worth while.

I think Ann and all the rest have said it best - even in your situation you have contributed so much to us here on this forum, so I know there are other places where you have contributed even more.

Hope today is a brighter day, and if it happens not to be hang in there because one will come.

[Gary]

Today is a new day and hopefully a better one. You know it seems like when I start feeling down it becomes a vicious cycle. No matter how hard I try I DO feel sorry for myself. I hate to admit this but until I had MS I really had no sympathy for anyone with a chronic neurological illness mostly because if you can't see it it must not exist, after all You-Look-So-Good.

MS sucks both physically and mentally. I hate the "MS doesnt get me down, I dont let MS run my life, blah, blah, blah well goody, goody for you. I hate it every day of my life. If it wasnt for BT and the folks here to listen to my whining, complaining and general bit$%*(@ I would have lost it a long time ago.

Please check in even if just to say hi. Or we may be forced to send Howie and his attack cats over to have a talk with you!

[Frog42]

I totally get how you feel.

I agree with everyone, check in now and then. You're not invisible here at least.

[Cherie]

Joan,
I don't think there is a one here reading this who cannot relate to your vent and plea. It is tiring keeping up on life when it is work and exhausting. It is tiring maintaining relationships when you have to think and work at everything. It is tiring when you do something a bit out of the routine and need several days to catch up and reset your body's clock. It's hard when it feels like no one in your sphere of influence or family "gets it"! Keep on keeping on. It will all even out in the end. Sorry this is hard right now. Me too. I understand.

[Lazarus]

Let me chime in too. It seems we have all figured out the puzzle...
When we come face to face with how hard it is....thoughts we manage to push away on most days.....well, when that reality comes smacking us in the face, we just hang on and wait. Soon enough the joys of life bubble to the surface of our awareness again. But sometimes it is a hard/long wait to reach that surface again.
Thinking of you.

[Sunshine]

MS SUCKS. I hate it too. I totally relate to what you wrote. It was brave and honest. Yeah, we all have things to live for and pleasures in life, but bottom line is MS sucks. And it does have me. It doesn't matter that others have bigger bags of rocks to carry, we are sick of carrying OUR bag of rocks.

[agate]

Does anyone know if the symbols used for PMs are accurate? I sent nuthatch a PM after seeing this thread but no reply so far. A symbol next to my Sent message indicates that it's been read. So at least she probably read it, or do I have this wrong?


I hope she hasn't left the board.

There are some interesting photos in her Profile if you haven't looked--including some very handsome cats.