!!Rant/fessin' up!!

[Buttons2]

Chris, I found out something interesting this morning on the Today show. Carrie Fisher was on promoting her newest book. then she talked about getting electric shock treatments for her Bi-Polar disoder. said she's tried all the meds. & the shock treatments helped her. (not like the old days when it was a gruesome thing). might ask your doc about it? anything is worth a try!

sorry about CJ losing his job! that sucks.

as for the DHS saga. well I know it will come out OK in the end. wish you could get a new caseworker though. losing paperwork sounds like a lame excuse.

I just so wish all this crap in your life would get overwith & be gone for good!

try real hard to focus on the positives Chris. we all care ((((hugs)))) Pati

[Jo6]

Oh my Christina, you are such an angel and I want you to FEEL IT!! Try to stop trying to fix the whole world. You gotta save a little for me to solve!!

If you can cry when you come here and post, then hop on there and post. All during the day and at night. It doesn't have to be hugh, but BT is supposed to be here to help us all. Crying is good for you. It gets rids of the bad chemicals and helps relieve stress.

If I told you how many times I have walked into a Drs. off and he would say good morning and I would burst out crying and not have a clue why!! I guess some folk would think I was insane, but only the Drs. that just don't know how to treat people like they are human!!

You aren't insane, you are over stressed, over-worked and trying to carry the whole wide world on your shoulders. Sweetie, those pretty little shoulders aren't there to carry the world, now are they!

I know it hurts for son to have problems down in Ga. but he will have to work thru that. I tell you Christina, I have been in a spot like that and I couldn't get to son and make it all better. He is still working thru it and he can only come visit his Mom when the probation officer isn't being an a$$hole. That isn't offen either. So you set that one over on the shelf and that don't mean you have forgotten it, he will always be in you heart and you will always be in his. When you are better and stronger you can take that one down and see if you can do anything about it. Sometimes it is only love we can send them. That will hold him and help him get thru this patch.

I have sat in front of this computer and cried my eyes out so many times I can't count!! Please don't stay away, we are here for you, whenever you need us. I don't have your address since you moved. It you don't mind someone to give it to me I will write you. If you want, send me your tele. # and I promise not to abuse. I will call you only if you ask me.

As you can see, we are all very concerned about you. I'm not a Dr. and have no idea how to treat you, but even if you go to a hospital you have never been to I'm sure they will know how to treat you if you tell them things you have written here. Scan all the post you have posted and take them with you. You can decide whether you want to share things or not.

Christina, I ended up in a hospital I had never been a patient out. they kept me 10 days. It's been just over a year and I'm still trying to figure out things that happened , wondering if I had nightmares or if it really happened. I knew none of the Drs. Ken took me there because our family DR. Told him to get me to the nearest hospital to us. My BP was stroke high! Well, I don't know what happened from there. It was 4 or 5 days before I knew I was alive.

Don't be afraid to go. You can just let your mind rest easy and let them wait on you hand and foot. Do it for Christina. The family will survive. They will miss you of course, but maybe they will see you need attention.

Talk to Princes. She loves you so too. I'm glad you have her. I know she is worried about you too.

I love you dearly. My baby sis, Jewel have learned to love you also. She was worried about you. She got all over me about writing you because you were worried about me. I didn't know because I had stopped going to FB. Well, you can stop worrying over me and take care of someone I love dearly, Christina. ((((((My 'lil Queenie))))))

Julia and because I'm big Queenie you are supposed to mind me, you hear? s

[houghchrst]

I hear ya Big Queenie! Looks like I will be doing day treatment then see how that goes. No clue how long or how soon my psych seems to think ASAP.

I am scared to death. I don't want them messing with my meds and making me sick then sending then sending me home for the night.

[houghchrst]

Had my intake meeting here today. Lady was very nice. Spent more time talking about pets than anything else lol. So it will be either tomorrow or Friday. Most likely Friday cause Shortcake has an afternoon appt tomorrow.

CJ got called back to work today. Guess there was a big mistake and he wasn't suppose to be in the group that got let go so a few heads rolled and they called right after my intake lady got here. Thank God. When it comes to his employment I try to push it to the side and not worry so much about it cause I know he will do what he needs to do. DHS has caused me so much stress it is ridiculous. Every day there is something they want, paperwork to fill out repeating the same info they had gotten just weeks ago. I have had to report my caseworker for the third time next I am calling my congressman if I hear nothing from her. They cut off my medical thanks to her so hopefully there will be no problem getting in the clinic.

Well I no sooner posted this than I got a call, tomorrow morning at 8:00 a.m. LOL. They are directly behind me, I can cut through the little bit of woods to go if I need to. I can practically see the building from my bedroom window.

[Jo6]

Well darling 'lil Queenie, I would say that means NOW! Don't you? Don't be afraid, we will continue to pray for you and love you and look forward to the day YOU have everything settled in your mind.

Tell the Dr. about your fears concerning your meds. I understand that feeling. Instead of changing everything at once TELL them one at a time. Now you know I'm no Dr., not even a nurse, but if you feel like they aren't listening to you grab that white coat and tell them you mean business. I've had to do that a few times, can you imagine? lol Well it wan't even near funny at the time, at least to me. They did stop and told me to start over and tell them again. So, that's an option, maybe?

I've been trying to figure out how to help you since last night. Sweetie, if there is anything I can do to help please tell me. The Dr. said ASAP so I would do what she/he said. If you feel you need some in-patient days, tell them. That is something you can do and not spend time worring about, eh?

The grinch named Fibro has a grip on me that I can not break loose right now. Maybe I need to go spend some time in the freezer.

I will check back later. Feel the love from all of us and know we are here for you!!

All my love, Julia aka the Big Queenie. s

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Chris, I'm relieved you will be getting help. and sooooo glad CJ still has a job! we cannot keep you from being a worry wart,heck I have that affliction myself!

I think you need an advocate. someone to help straighten out the mess with DSH. you're gonna sink lower if some of these issues aren't resolved afterall. and then what? just more stress doing catchup work that's what! call the head of DHS in your state,make some heads roll. file a formal complaint,whatever it takes to get some action.

of course you're afraid! who wouldn't be? we're always here for you Chris. ((((hugs)))) Pati

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well it is today so I am hoping things are moving forward to getting you to feeling better.

So glad like everyone else that CJ did not lose his job. I was thinking, what were they thinking!!!. It is hard to not worry when there is no money. We shouldn't be that way but treatments, medicines etc all cost. And no one can survive long without food and I've gotten use to being a bit comfortablle, too hot or too cold makes me a miserable person to be around.

Just hoping things are working out as I am typing. ((((HUGS))))

[dawnmn]

Chris, so glad to hear that you are going into a day treatment. I did one and it really helped me.

So happy for you that CJ is going to get his job back.

You take care of yourself first.

You'll have to tell us what kind of things that you do in your day treatment

[houghchrst]

I am just so stinkin' mad. The psych there started me on Tegretol, hey one I never tried lol, and I like it a lot. Well of course it is doing the same thing to me that the Abilify did. Vomiting and triggering my IBS every time I eat. So today I called in. Why does this crap keep happening to me! Yesterday was a great day, group went good felt good for a change but wake this morning and start vomiting. I have been having a bit of nausea and a couple of IBS attacks but was hoping the nausea would pass and the IBS attacks were coincidence. Ahhh but not to be so.

It is a long day there, 6 hours, first is Educational Didactic Group therapy, then Group Therapy where yes I participate, then lunch for an hour, they provide hospital food Blech, then there is Activity Goup which is fun. From 9-3. By the time I get out of there I am mentally and emotionally whipped. I just wanna lay around lol.

The people there are great, especially the staff. This particular hospital that this is through has always had wonderful, kind staff.[/B]

[dawnmn]

Chris, isn't there anything that they can give you the helps with the side effects? Glad that you like the group. It does make one tired and they do keep you busy. One session I had there we got to make craft things.

[houghchrst]

Dawn I have tried Reglan but it contributes to my depression so I can't take it for any length of time. I do take generic Prilosec to help my stomach from all the meds I already take. I have no clue what else there is. The MMJ helps quite a bit during an attack and a couple of muscle relaxers for the severe cramping but by then it takes no time whatsoever to kick into screeching nauseating misery. It is already full blown by the time I get to anything.

We have played a couple of fun games and watched a movie and a few other silly things in group.

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once again will try to reply here!

Chris,sounds like something interesting for you to do,take a big hunk from your day at any rate. hopefully you will benefit from this.

your stomach pain,etc. is something (in my opinion) you shouldn't have to suffer from. do they just keep giving you more pills? can diet make any difference?

((((hugs)))) Pati

[Jo6]

hi lil Queenie.
Have you tried Nexium? The Dr. put me on that about a month ago. I has certainly helped. I take a boat load of Meds. and every time I tried to eat I had begun to throw up. Haven't done that since I started the Nexium. Maybe worth a thought.
I'm glad you are enjoying therapy. I was an in-patient at a Pain Clinic some time ago. It really did help me. Yeah, we had to do some really crazy things. lol Once I got through about 2 weeks I begun to enjoy some of the little silly things.

I hope all will go well once they get your tummy settled down. Do you still have your gall bladder? that could be a problem, but I'm no Dr. lol I guess you figured that one out a longggggggg time ago.

I love you dear one, *big Queenie

[houghchrst]

No gall bladder. That is when my IBS started was when they took it out. The nausea and vomiting I have had for years and the prilosec helps but maybe I am due for a new med. I did try Nexium for a short while years ago and liked it but my insurance quit paying for it until I went through one of the 'must try three meds before we will pay for anything expensive that works'.

I have stopped taking the med and of course all is well for the most part. My migraines have increased in frequency thanks to a bit of withdrawal I believe. I didn't go on Friday either thanks to a class A migraine. Just didn't show up. Bad I know but if I had called they would have spoken to me like a fragile ignorant child and tried to talk me into coming in. Not in the mood to deal with it. Spent most of Thursday and Friday in bed.

I am feeling calmer. It is a forced calm. Forcing my brain to shut up for a while. I had to quit my involvement in the local Occupy movement. Too hard to get out and the videos from across the nation of police brutality and the reactions of the rich were just getting to me too much on top of dealing with SSI, The Department of Human Services and my pain. Not getting some things done. Having to learn all over again to stop freaking out about the mess my house is. Yes that danged basket of shirts that need to be hung are still there.

I need to start coming back here more often.

I hate having to go to that group for so long. I was just thinking that I need to make a bunch of calls tomorrow but I cannot do it cause that is where I will be. I have my mornings set to make calls because most of the time I have to wait most the day to get a return call or my paperwork is here. Have to find some way around it.

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I need to start coming back here more often. Yep you sure do sweetheart. Love you to pieces and i sure wish you wern't always hurting so bad.